When my littles were even littler, we had an epic car conversation about space.
“Mommy, name some of the planets!”
“Let’s see…there’s Earth, Saturn, Uranus, Venus…”
I’ll stop here. Because Eli didn’t hear the ‘V’ in Venus…he heard a ‘P’.
“Daddy’s (insert misheard word) is a planet?!!!”
It took a while to explain nothing on our bodies constitutes a planet. However, it’s pretty obvious we have trouble coming to grips the world doesn’t revolve around us.
A couple weeks ago, I wandered into our adoption journey with a woman I just met. Wide-eyed, she interrupted me, ‘Five years!? How have you had the strength to go through all this and keep going?!’
I paused; I didn’t know a smidge about her faith, religion, or worldview. The beauty of a testimony is it belongs to its storyteller.
“God. It’s only through God. It’s the only answer I have. But, it’s the honest answer.”
I’ve no clue what she was thinking, but wheels where definitely running full speed behind her furrowed brow.
Sometimes, we forget our struggle doesn’t make us the center of the universe. At times, I’m too busy expecting everyone to revolve around me because I’m hurting.
The overwhelming amount of paper work,
Nights sobbing on the bathroom floor,
Naming and un-naming of children I thought were ours,
The ache of laying down my will in order to pick up God’s,
What if…all of it was to testify to this one woman…God is good. God is strong.
Would that be enough for me? Do I have the heart of Jesus to go after the one? These are questions I’m challenged with.
God’s heart is missional. He’s created me in His image to be on mission with him. Oh, how he loves us. Oh, how he wants all people to be saved and to come to knowledge of the truth.” (1 Timothy 2:4)
Our lives aren’t just about us. They are ultimately about proclaiming His great name. Each trial, victory, tear of joy and wrenching heartache can be used to point someone we love to Jesus. New wine is only made through the crushing of grapes. What if the product of the pressing isn’t for us to enjoy alone?
Your friends are watching you.
Your children are listening to you.
You aren’t the only one in the midst of struggle.
Praise God in the pressing.
It may bring new life to someone standing next to you. There’s only room for ONE at the center of the universe.
“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” (2 Corinthians 4:17)